10 May 2009

i need to breathe...
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!
oh God i feel like suc a hypocrite..
i didnt even wish my own mother:(
din noe till like..few hrs ago..?
yeah ppl will say dat u can still wish..well,u shud noe abt it in the first place..
but..
my life is just...
i cant seem to find the words for it..
ugh.


week's been hectic..
cant believe its like the end of week one exams alr..
stress stress..
n no..of coz its not jus due to the bks n mother's stress..
i dun noe really..
derz like sumtink pulling me down..
pulling me down to drown..
but i dunoe wat-.-
haiz..
promised myself not to be emo agn-.-

its jus dat ppl n stuff jus gets me bloody pissed off..
im sorry if uve bin one of the victims..
dun tink so tho..ppl hu read my blog r ppl hu i dun get pissed off wif..(:
im so weird-.-
dunnoe wat im rambling abt either..
but den agn..its either i blow up,or i cry.
n i hate it.
either or.
n outside..i put a facade..
a wall dat no one can break thru..
a smile..
ugh.


nemind me jus so glad to at least have one wayto jus ramble on and vent off..
as in,ppl listen to u..but u cant kip talking nonstop coz theyve got a life too..
im not blaming anyone..
nor do i wan 2 burden anyone wif my problems..
i noe the world doesnt revolve ard me..

so yeah..i promised myself i wudnt use the com n study..
but i dun
wait.im using my sis laptop(yeahh how jealous am i??)
n i studied dis morn(or at least i tried to)

kinda glad but kinda not dat tmr is a public holiday..
once agn i promisemyself to study-.-
yeahh..esp since i screwed up lit paper 1....
dats the other ting i dun get..
i tell ppl dat i screwed up my papers n no one seem to believe me..
as in yeah..i get ur point n i appreciate ur efforts to like 'cheer me up' but sumtimes i wish ppl will jus smile n nod n like tell me dat dey understand rather than saying 'i dun believe u' n saying dat i always do so well n say dat im jus kinda lying wen i say i screwed up my paper...
im human too okay?


L1R5 off 22 is no joke..
butthe ting is..
all im aiming for now is a 11
eng-b3
humans(comb/lit)-b3
e math-a1
chem-a1
malay-a1
any other subj(phys/a math/humans)-a2

ting is i dun tink its poss for MYE
n o levels? haiz..
its like im worried but at the same time..i still dun care?
weird weird weird..

sheesh

k gtg now..
dun wanna be able to not use the laptop some othr time..

ciaoz
memyself ZURAH


ps. to all frens hu ive not keep in touch,im sorry
imy n ily guys(: